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Name: Will
Gender: Male
Interests: Mother Nature, Sports, Laughter, Coffee, Photography, Science, Art, Plant Study, Rain Storms, Bees, and more about me later.
Expertise: Making people smile, gardening, photography, cooking, traveling...
Occupation: College Student
Industry: Building the great minds
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Member Since:
5/16/2007
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| Lets have a gay old time!To this day I've never seen a picture of me kissing a guy!
To start I have a hard time seeing in my mind what I look like to the people around me from day to day interaction. So than to add in me kissing another guys. (in a comical way) I think it would almost prove to myself I'm gay seeing a pic of me kissing a guy. Like Ha! I knew it, as I'm pointing to myself kissing a guy. LOL | | |
| All English and ProperThis boy Jonny I've been crushing on for a while now. He is literally everything I've ever looked for in a guy. I dare never say perfect for no one is perfect but so far he has met every desire I look for. He gardens, lame I know but this being a large part of my life to find another guy with the same understanding, words cant do just. He cooks and bakes, who doesn't like that in a man!? He is a very talented artist!!! Draws and paints! He's tall and handsome, always smiling, up beat, dorky, nerdy, silly. I could honestly see myself living forever with him, growing old, raising a family. I don't ever think that about guys. I usually want to fix this or worry about that. He stands up to everything.
Problem with this being he lives in England. We met over Dailybooth.com where everyday you take a picture and write a comment. If it would have been a different type of website we met over I would be hesitant to let my feelings be so strong. I'm able to see into his life and judge who he is as a person daily. To make our connection stronger we also talk on Skype. Skype for anyone that doesn't know is video/audio chat along with text. I'm able to talk and see this person that lives so far away. It almost makes him real. Hard to hid who you are over video.
I've not told him about my feeling for him, nor has he told me even though I think he shares the same feelings. Part of me doesn't want to admit my feelings because that would make it real. I see it happening more easily us drifting off in different directions continuing on with our own lives. Last night I had a dream that he was in. I was running around a mall trying to save everyone from lord knows what! lol All of a sudden he showed up! And we were cuddling and I think trying to take a nap somewhere in the mall. (it was a dream so of course it wont make sense!) We started Kissing! Thats all we did and all I really wanted to happen. My problem is if I really dont have the strongest feelings for the guy I'm willing to do more. If I have strong feelings its like holding a delicate egg. I'm afraid to do anything for fear I'll loose what I have. Well with him I didn't want to do anymore than kiss. I cant remember the last time I've dreamt about a guy i've been interested in. I only incorporate certain things into my dreams.
(and now were talking on skype at the moment...)
I guess with everything all I can so is take the ride. See what happens with my crazy life. Who ever knows. I have always really for real wanted to live in England... LOL | | |
| A self condoned Prison...I'm home now and totally neutral about the whole thing. I love being back to my garden, trees, birds, fresh air, it all makes it totally worth it. I do feel out of place though. Either friends aren't here because there off having there own lives in other cities while doing school. Or the ones that are here will be going off to school in the fall. They all talk about school as its a continuous process. All I have is to tell the stores from the past. I try and say what my plans are for the future but its not set in stone so its hard to even really explain my dreams. I do have my best friend here but thats another interesting topic.
She's been dating this guy for awhile now. He is the best guy out there and I'm so glad she finally gets the best. She deserves it! Its hard though because I dont want to feel like I'm jumping between them. I want to continue where we leave off. We have that magic between us that we can do that. Not see each other for months but pick up like we were hanging out the night before. I went bowling with Sami (bff), Logan (sami's brother) and matt (the boyfriend). it was a really nice evening. I can see why she's dating him. He is me just straight! There were things I was just about to say but held back, a second later it comes out of his mouth! He's silly, crazy and funny using all my humor. Its the weirdest thing I've ever seen. Glad to know I'm kinda cute straight. LOL
I guess the problem is weighing between seeing my friend and catching up with her and letting her continue what she has going on with her boyfriend. We both love each other as intensely as we can. She's promised that no matter who she dates I will be a part of her life. I know it really wont be a problem with this guy. He's cool and I would like to get to know him. It just needs time.
Idk, its just hard because there is hardly anyone here my age and I feel i'm sentenced myself to a year hard crewel labor. Jobs here are dried up, nothing requesting my services. I guess that keeps me true to my nature, putting myself in impossible positions. Somehow I manage to make it through, but why do I put myself through it!? I guess all I have right now is my garden but thats gone come winter. Depression is killer and that is my greatest fear. Since being home even internet, my connection to the world, has felt dried up, boring, dead. That scares me.
With hopes and prayers may I find guidance! | | |
| My best friend in the world, my cat.My parents keep pushing for me to give away my cat before I move home. To make it even harder tonight I watched a Nature show on cats and dogs and our bonds with them. How do I explain the connection I have with my cat? I sound lame and clingy but its not actually that. We've both grown as a team with each other. When i first got him I set him down in my apartment and I apologized to him. It was the first thing I did. I told him I had never grown up with cats and that i'm learning how to take care of them. I also invited him to get to know me while I get to know him. And through that, we have grown such a bond it could never possibly be split. When I come home after work or school he's right there welcoming me. I have to set down my jacket and book bag, plop down on the chair and have cuddle time with him. He sits right on my chest and gives me little kisses. He's smart, curious, eager, playful, independent, patient, truthful, strong, shy and brave. When I first got him I knew none of this about him and some of those personalities I believe had been hidden away. I adopted him from a no kill cat shelter. They had been keeping him in special care for over a month in-order to renourish him. They believe he was at one point a house cat but got out through a window. He had lost alot of weight and was very shy to the world. (as I type he's finding a place on my lap while he shoves his face between my hands just to get a little love.) He hated with a firey passion being in the shelter with other cats and just needed a place of his own to claim. We were meant to be together.
He has gotten me through some pretty intense times in my life over the past year.
I hope my parents will be somewhat understanding. | | |
| What I have to deal with in my APT. (Kinda proud of this letter)June 25, 2009
Dear Jamie,
Building Manager,
I live on the first floor apartment XXX, right on the corner of Sheridan and XXX. This morning I was rudely woken by the spray of water from my window. Upon looking at the window from which the spray came from I found water pooled on the window ledge inside and on the window blind. Right outside my window was a maintenance staff watering the shrubs with a water hose. I did not approach him about what had happened.
As I was just sleeping I’m not sure where my cat was at that moment but this is the only way I could possibly explain how this bizarre incident happened. I’ve had a few times in the past where my cat would sit in the window and the maintenance staff would spray water up at the window in attempt to interact or scare my cat. Those times before my windowpane was closed so no water entered my apartment. Now, I would go as far as to say trying to spray a cat with water from a cold garden hose is, to a degree, animal abuse. My cat is already afraid of water, this disregard for an animals wellbeing does not help the situation. Again, I’m not sure if my cat was in the window this time but it does not explain the reasoning as to why water is being sprayed up in the direction of my window.
After approaching Jamie I snapped a few pictures for my own record of what had happened and cleaned up the mess. My thoughts on this situation are as follows; I pay to live in this residence, not be disturbed by what is going on outside my window. I’m unhappy with the disrespect for my property by this staff. What if I were not here to clean up the mess? The water damage could have resulted in a deduction from my deposit. And not to mention my property including electronics and artwork set by this window. I ask that from now on staff refrain from interacting with my cat, staff does not intentionally spray water into my apartment and that a little respect is shown to my property.
My second Incident Report was discussed also with the meeting of Jamie. One evening last week, either the late PM or early AM hours I was disturbed by a maintenance staff. I was watching a show when the staff approached my window and knocked on it. He was wearing the maintenance staff uniform so I did recognize him as someone that works in the building. I was shocked as to why anyone was knocking on my window but even more surprised it was staff of the building. He asked if I could let him into the building because he had either misplaced or forgot his keys inside. I stopped what I was doing, on my own personal time and a private paying resident went out and opened the door for him. Though I do know now it was wrong of me to do so I did let him in.
My thoughts on this situation: as a paying private resident I should not be approached by any of the staff to complete such requests. I’d feel uncomfortable with anyone knocking on my windows at late hours of the night, let alone by the maintenance staff that work in this building. I’m also aware that you do give three let-ins for free before charging. I do think that is wonderful for some other apartments charge upon the first request. I do think though that any, just one, request from a staff to let him in for his misplacement of keys is completely out of line.
I ask that in the future I am not approached in this manner by the maintenance staff. The only time I should be approach by staff is for professional matters, which do have a proper means in which they should be enforced or in the case of an emergency. I just simply ask that I as a resident be left at peace. I pay for these facilities, I shouldn’t be bothered with such problems. This is a nice building and most of the staff show wonderful friendly service and I am very grateful for that. I would like it though if the staff, not showing proper etiquette, be informed as how to properly interact with residents.
Thank you for your time and compassion.
XXX X. XXX
XXXX North Sheridan Road
Apt XXX
773.XXX.XXXX
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